Its crazy, I think im addicted to the pain, heartache, & the confusion. You dont want me doing things... but yet you do them & it gets me so mad. I cant tell you cause I know you would flip out about it, all my mind can do is referr to this, sexual thoughts. I say "I need to get all this confusion out my head, I need to stop thinking about this" and all I can think about is just KISS HIM, FORGET ALL ABOUT IT - thats the only way. So I do that.. and whats so bad is that, its actually working.. my minds free of those thoughts & im getting a different feeling..