If I eat arroz con pollo anymore, chicken is gonna crow in my stomach and imma shit out grains lmfao.

ah well heres is my day, nothing much really went to plattsburgh to shop & I aint buy shit this time. People pissed me off I got a bad headache and still do & missed my babes the rest of the time :) what a day huh. Uhm.. what eles oh myspace like I still cant believe you got bitches typing a "3" instead of a "e", a "4" instead of a "a" actin like they hoodrats, come'on ma we in 08 -___--- get your act together. Uhm let me ramble on abit.. ya, im tired of people in this house lol got em all screamin at me when I ask a simple mother fuckin question. My brother spills juice on the table and all my moms says is "oh you can just clean it up" ayy dios if it was me she'd have my head on a fuckin platter. Oh and another thing since I still gotta address bitches.

Where the fuck is realness like this?
psh the shit dissapeared, so when you find real shit THIS holla at me

I remember lookin all over this song, ever since I was little I heard this shit
& ALWAYS loved it to the end man. So yea this song is ill to me.

oh & pause the music on the right,
& press play to get real music in your soul.

This shit like I unno, it find it mad creative. Nigga aint even show his face & I find it a hit. Like this whole video is the reason behind the cover I was always wondering why it was mad colorful and he got the teddy bear wondering around the city & got like white/octupusses chasin him lol its mad chill.

oh & you might wanna stop the song on the right corner ;]

I feel like crap right now like.. just blah cant explain this shit. My whole life feels like a wreck right about now and I feel mad stressed with everything family, school, my dude everything man ;/. My moms hardly here she headin back to puerto rico like sunday I think? my dad who cares about him he always finds himself around alcohol, my dude always wants to dip the times I need him the most, school I just feel like saying fuck it. I feel mad empty right now & noone gets that I dont give a shit about nothing at this point in my life. I know im young blah blah im only 16 save the bullshit please. I just want him here with me like.. someone I could talk to and he gives me "baby imma go now" or hes busy getting piffed with his cousins & shit. All this bullshit has just gotten to me, I even blasted at my mom & she just stood there lookin at me like "wow this is something I never seen". Like I said I dont care about much so I started issolated myself from alot & like it doesnt phase me. Im back on the gettin high & drinkin role & cussin non stop & if my man finds out hes probally gonna snap but what the hell, your just dippin here & there like whatever.


The moms.

Who knows like shes in and out my life too ;/ and yeah I dont care that im postin this shit out im lettin it all out but yea shes here in puerto rico here puerto rico. I dont bother with it anymore thats why I feel independent & I know iam cause ive been doing things on my own.


My Dad?

God should strike him down for giving him the title "father/dad". He got 4 kids & none outta us 4 kids give a damn about him. Hes dirt and hes below me I still remember the time the nigga called me saying wait wait
he called me one day before my birthday saying "oh I heard this and this about you" FUCK WHAT YOU HEARD YOU NEVER BEEN THERE WHY THE FUCK YOU EVEN TALKIN TO ME, who knows if he was fuckin drunk or what and you know the funny thing he called one day before my birthday and when my birthday came the next day.. you know the nigga didnt call to wish me a happy birthday? -___--- and had the nerve last year to come to me saying "oh your supposed to call me on your birthday" fuck your shit nigga your a waste. Fuckin do us all a favor and die. Atleast my moms was woman enough to throw you out.


My Dude.


I dont get him.. todays what tuesday.. yeah sunday we was doing good he actually stayed the whole night which was like once in a blue moon ;/ & then like always on this day he has to dip once again & I even think hes doin some shit with other females I dont even know ;/ I get no msg's no more and he like he says hes goin n like he goes "sleep good" I think he knows im gonna be sleepin so hes not even gonna bother to call me or leave a msg cause he knows im sleepin so hes doin his dirt, maybe im being paranoid? I dont know but im not going through it again. Its been going so good & hes been the only one I could talk to.


anyways im done with this blog thing.. im gonna eat ice cream.
& hopefully I dont know he calls? cause if it keeps goin like this.
im dippin the same way he does it.

I dont get some females, like I got about 3 girls that are my friends that I could trust. I chill with females but like I rather not cause some of them be giving off negative energy. Some of them act like kids saying "well I aint your friend no more" and they grown ass bitches YEA THAT SHIT IS PETTY PRESCHOOL SHIT. I rather not deal with that though on the reals. I cant say I hate females cause im one so it aint right. I just rather not deal with childish shit. Some of them act like hoes & let their shit loose like.. they fuck some dude & tell their other girls & then they find out their dude knows they fucked some other dude like.. & then they attack the girl yea I would too but point is.. why tell someone your business that you dont trust & your wrong on your part for fuckin some other dude & hoping that he wont find out. Another thing is, girls please please pleaseeeee

you dress sleezy, makin dudes think you give it away eazy!

yea & you wonder why some dudes be calling you a hoe, & doin shit to make you feel like your easy.
Some of you be going around sayin "so what if I fucked this dude it was good anyways". News flash ma'
not all dudes are into that shit so watch what your mouth exposes. & those are the girls I will never associate with.


n-a-s-t-y ya nasty, f-r-e-a-k-y ya freaky.
GIRL WHERES YA P-R-I-D-E.

So yeah, & for the good girls cant forget about yall. Who keep it real 365 days of the year. DONT SCREW UP LIKE THOSE OTHER GIRLS. If you got morals stick to em, if you aint ready dont give it out like food stamps -__---. Dont dress sleezy cause they next girl be doin it & gettin whatever she wants. Oh & one thing.. dont be stealin a girls dude lmfao.

I don't want to be another statistic
some suicidal teen...
who makes a choice to kill herself
when the world just seem to mean.
She can't go on with life
or so to her it seems
reality has fallen short
& so have her many dreams.

I don't want to be another statistic
some pregnant little girl
who met this great guy
& then gave sex a whirl.
She was only 16
but it felt so right
she thought they'd be together
for more than just a night.

I don't want to be another statistic
some kid strung out on crack
who started at a party
& now he can't turn back.

First cigarettes and alcohol
now meth, crack and cocaine
he's been smoking it so long.
that now he's gone insane.

I don't want to be another statistic
some girl left in the rain
who was walking home from school
then raaped and left in pain.
she can't tell her parents
& it hurts to tell her friends
she doesn't know what she'll do
to make this nightmare end.

I don't want to be another statistic
some kid out of school
who dropped out really early
and was acting like a fool.
He thought that it was boring
He thought that it was dumb
He doesn't have an education
but he lives on the streets like a bum.

I don't want to be another statistic
some stereotypical teen
Im gonna make a difference
ill finish with my dream.
I wont end up pregnant
on drugs or even dead
I wont drop out of school
because ill use my head.

I dont want to be another statistic
to fit into some mold
of what society thinks of kids today
because its getting kind of old.
Not all of us are bad
in fact most of us are good
When will the world see us
& give us credit like they should?

My question is, why do people try to change other people? My thought is because their not satisfied with the person or their not up to their standards and they want them to be like how they portray them to be. Today is my worst day really got into fights with fam members and whatever. Like if someone snaps at me or hits me ill flip the fuck out "oh dont talk back like that" yea I know to respect my elders but what im getting at is its me, its what I was brought up around - its what I was surrounded by I wont change ill always be hardheaded I wont give a shit and I dont think ive said it enough for people to get it through their thick heads I wont change for noone, I wont fucking do it. I'll always be rude and ill always snap back. Dont think im rude all the time or a complete bitch im the nicest person you could meet just dont flip me the fuck off. I dont listen to the "oh were doing it for your own good" let me live my life let me go through the mistakes and figure this shit out life aint easy so im rollin with the punches. When I say leave me alone I mean leave me alone and get from my face cause ill just explode. Anyways I just needed to write this blog cause everyones been askin whats wrong or why you tend to flip out so easy. READ AND FIND OUT WHY. thank you.

Another year, time to hit the books. I kindda fucked up myself by repeating a year cause I was hitting down a fast lane but heres my plan, first term (semester) im gonna try & get a high mark so they can just put me up into my grade & this will be my last year of highschool. I need to get this shit finish off with - I need to buckle down. I got my plan down cause if I dont get it down now god knows when I will & I just wanna graduate & shit and live my life not worrying about getting up at like 6 and getting ready for school and not getting a good job and shit. My next plan is I need some mula so while im finishing school its time to get my cake up cause I was doing all good being independant & I slipped on that too so yeah. Last year for school went by od' fast so im praying this one will & this year I pretty much dont got time for childish shit I NEED TO GET THIS SHIT OVER WITH blah I just hope when I go to register for school I dont get fucked over with some bullshit. So yeaaa the point of this blog is to remind me to buckle the fuck down & be a woman on my part. Good luck Kosharrie (cause im sure I might need it)

so today it seems like its gonna rain & yeah im bored.
so uhm yea im sitting here eatin blueberries which are not to sweet not to sour, just right. & im sittin here with jerry springger on watchin girls degradding theirself -___--, hurry up & come on steve wilko. Uhm.. if my moms want some of these blueberries she better hury before i eat the whole container. I took some pictures but my batteries died so im waitin for them to charge & this enegerzier charger sucks to me.. so yeaa.. WTF ;/ my blueberry fell i cought it, drops again and drops to the ground great im lazy to go under the desk n get it.. ill get it after. lmfao at this commercial "877 393 4 4448! come on mi gente!" lmfao stupid optimum commercial. ok so im rambling on cause from 7 this morning till 12 in the afternoon ive been bored outta my brains. *sticks my tongue out* toodles.